New Favorite Breakfast

I have not always been a breakfast girl, but in the last couple of years can't seem to function if I don't have something.   I like oatmeal, I like cream of wheat and grits, but my favorite breakfast used to be Chick-fil-A chicken minis.  Since Scarlett (my band) came along the chicken mini's just don't work.  On my way into the office every morning I have to pass by 2 CFA restaurants and this morning I guess I was feeling froggy and pulled in the drive through.  I am not sure exactly when I pulled in what I was going to order, but I knew I wanted something from CFA.  As I looked at the menu I saw something new.  A yogurt and fruit parfait.  I am not big on plain vanilla yogurt but with fruit and granola I thought I would give it a try.  Yep, it has become my new favorite.  I LOVE it!!  If you like this kind of thing you have to try it.  I think I am going to make it at home myself and see how that goes. 

A better attitude and baggy clothes

I have been feeling kind of down lately (you can tell from my past posts) about my weight loss progress.  I was talking to someone close to me who has also had the procedure and he told me something that never really occured to me.  I had the surgery done 7 months ago and have lost 20 lbs.  However, my Dr. is SUPER conservative with fills and won't just let me call up and come in when I think I need one.  He makes me wati 6 weeks in between.  Anyway, this person told me that I had not really been reaping the rewards of the surgery until just 4 weeks ago when I finally felt restriction.  I had lost weight right after the surgery when I was on liquids, but nothing since.  I am now on the downward slope (yay!) but was still kind of down about it.  But when I put into perspective with the time and everything else, I think I am doing pretty good.  I know I need to exercise more, but that is something I can change and I will! 

I have definitely noticed some changes in my clothes lately, my jeans especially.  They are getting really baggy in the booty.  Last winter my mom bought me a winter jacket and it fit really well.  Today we went to the Univeristy of Alabama A Club Football BBQ Cook-Off and it was cold!!  I wore said jacket above and it was kind of baggy on me.  I was happy!  It still looked good, but I know that this year will the last time I will get to wear it.  Here are a couple of pics from today.

Me and my husband Joe

Better attitude = Better Kim

As I have looked back at my last few posts I noticed something....I seem to be complaining or kind of down.  I have decided tonight that I am going to have a better attitude and hopefully that will change things.  Instead of being pissed off and stressed at work, I am going be to grateful I have a job and think of it has job security.  I am not going to get down on only losing 20 lbs so far,  I am going to think that I am 20 lbs lighter than I was 6 months ago.   Hopefully, if I can start thinking like this all the time I will become a happier person. 

Thank you to everyone for the support, ya'll are awesome!

Debbie Downer....maybe?

Why does my mind always go to the worst possible situation? 

I had my last fill on January 11th and the restriction was great.  I have found though over the last week that it has not been as tight.  I have had a few times where I have eaten too much too fast and had to bring it back up.  Of course my mind goes straight to my band has slipped or something is wrong with it and it's going to fail and I will be fat forever.  Of course I know this is probably not the case, but why do I immediately go there?  I called my Dr. office and they said not to worry about it and that my band is just probably getting adjusted and come in for my regular appointment on the 22nd.  I just need to simmer down now and not freak out, but it's been a week from you know where. 

I am getting really excited though about this weekend!!  My husband, dad, stepmom and I are going to over to the University of Alabama for a BBQ.  They are going to be former players there from the 50's up to the current National Championship team.  My dad played in the late 70's under Bear Bryant and won 2 National Championships in '78 and '79 so we get to be there 2 hours before the general public can come in and take pictures and stuff!  I am really looking forward to it.  See, I'm happier already! 

Bad News, Good News

Let's play a little game of bad news, good news.  Bad news this morning.....had to have a root canal and the left side of my face is numb.  Good news about having root canal.....can only eat mushy food for 2 weeks so probably will lose a good amount of weight!

Why can't my outside match my inside?

That is what I have been pondering lately?

I have very low self-esteem.  I am a very sensitive person but this has gotten better as I have gotten older.  I am also working on my self-esteem.  I know that I can be outgoing and fun but I think it's really hard for me when my outside does not match my insides.  On the inside, I feel cute and outgoing and fun, but on the outside I am fat and not so cute.  I know that this surgery will help with this, but I am worried at times that I still won't be able to see it.  My family tells me all the time that I am funny, but am I funny because I am the funny fat girl or because I am really a funny person? 

I want to dress better.  As we all know there is not a lot of "cute" big girl clothes out there and that upsets me.  I always feel like I am dressed sloppily. I try and pull off what I think is nice looking, but always end up looking not put together.  I want to look how I feel.  I am so self-conscious about how I look.  I wish I could be one of those people that just didn't give a rip and be myself, but I alas I am not.  It is a problem for me.  I worry about what other people are thinking of me it has held me back so much in my life.  It is something that I am constantly worrying about.  I always think people are judging me on how I look and not me.  Honestly, that is why there are no pictures of me on my blog or numbers.  I am too scared of what everyone will think of me.  Isn't that crazy?! 

I am hopeful though that I won't be like this forever.

Getting to know me.....again!

1. What is your occupation right now? EDI Enrollment Specialist for a medical software company

2. What color are your socks right now? I am barefoot at the moment

3. What are you listening to right now? NCIS

4. What was the last thing you ate? hummus

5. Can you drive a stick shift? yes

6. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Joe

7. Do you like the person who sent this to you? yes

9. What is your favorite sport to watch on tv? college football

10. What is your favorite drink? water

11. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yes

12. Favorite food? Italian

13. What is the last movie you watched? Mean Girls

14. Favorite day of the year? Christmas

16. What was your favorite toy as a child? I'm not sure

17. What is your favorite season? Fall

18. Cherries or Blueberries? cherries

19. Do you want your friends to e-mail you back? yep- it would be fun to learn more about my fellow bloggers.

20. Who is the most likely to respond? don't know?

21. Who is least likely to respond? people who don't read my blog :)

22. Living situation? with my husband, 2 dogs and cat

23. When was the last time you cried? today

24. What is on the floor of your closet right now: Joe's shoes and a suitcase

25. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending to? ??

26. What did you do last night? laundry

27. What are you most afraid of? someone I love dying unexpectedly

28. Plain, cheese, or spicy hamburgers? cheese, but I don't really eat them much

29. Favorite dog breed? great dane

30. Favorite day of the week? Friday

31. How many states have you lived in? 2

32. Diamonds or pearls? diamonds

33. What is your favorite flower? roses