Please Pray

First of all my family and I are fine. The tornadoes went just north and south of where I live.   However communities around the state are not, they are devastated by the tornadoes that ripped through the state.    Tuscaloosa, where I was born, is completely torn apart and my heart goes out to those families.  I watch the news and just cry.  Please keep everyone in your prayers.

Whaaaat???

It has been almost a month since I have posted.  That's horrible!  But I have been busy with work and school.  I love my new job!  I like the people I work with and the doctors are great.  I love working with the animals and owners (for the most part...there are some crazies out there!)  Part of me has not blogged because I don't think I am really worth of it.  I have not lost any weight lately and I know it's all my fault.  I really, really have to kick start something to get back on track.  I have to start eating better and getting more exercise.  It sounds so simple, doesn't it?  I am still in a funk, but I am trying really hard not to let it affect me, but that's hard too.  I don't feel like I have any support anymore, but that is really no excuse.  I had this tool installed for a healthier life and come hell or high water I am going to get the most out of it, starting right now!

Awesome News!!!!!

Last week I went on interviews at 2 animal hospitals and today I got the call that I got the job at the one I really wanted!  I am so excited!  I am officially a vet tech again :)  I was a vet tech in FL for 3 years and then became office manager at the animal hospital for the last 3 years I was there.  I absolutely love this work!  I love the interaction with the animals and the owners.  I have to admit I am very happy about wearing scrubs and tennis shoes everyday!  I know its weird, but I with my weight where it is I am not a fan of wearing heels everyday and getting dressed up.  I think that once I lose more weight I will be more excited about dressing up.  I am happy that I am moving forward with my new life!

A little bit of what's going on....

• It's a bullet point kind of day
• I am still here and still in my funk.  
• An update on the fires - they are under control.   
• My dad and stepmom leave tomorrow morning for 4 days.  I get the house to myself.  I think we are all looking forward to this mini vacation.  
• I am starting to see a counselor to deal with my issues.  I internalize waaaaaay to much stuff and it's not healthy.  I am so grateful to be able to talk to someone outside of my family about my problems.  
• I feel like my life is in chaos and out of control still, but I am working on me.  I will get it under control if it kills me.
• My dog, Gracie, is a huge faker for sympathy.  She started limping yesterday and when I paid her some extra special attention without Moose around, it was like a Festivus Miracle...she could walk without a limp!
• I have become addicted to the show Criminal Minds...thanks mama.
• I am still thoroughly enjoying school.  I am doing a lot better than I thought I would, but I also put a lot of pressure on myself.
• I am not losing weight like I want to, but I am also not gaining so I am not going to beat myself up over it.  I am making the necessary changes and the scale will start moving down soon.
• I am completely annoyed with the commercials for The Foundation for a Better Life...have you seen those?  They have a good message, but after I see it for the 874th time, it's annoying.  
• I miss my family.
• My cat has started snoring.  He sleeps in my room, most nights at the foot of my bed, and a couple weeks ago he started snoring.  It's strange.
• I need (ok, mostly want) a new purse.  Mine is like a black hole when I need to find something. 

Fires

Hey y'all.  Please pray for the people in Mims, FL and North Brevard FL.  There is a major wildfire going on.  It is only about 2 miles from my moms house and already threatening some friends houses.

Wow it's been a while since I have done one of these - BYOC

1. Are you a heavy or light sleeper?
Sleep is hard for me.  I don't fall asleep well at all.  I try my hardest, but I just lay there thinking about everything I need to do, what is going on in my life, etc.  When I do fall asleep though I guess it is pretty sound.  

2. If you were made into a professor for a day, what topic would you lecture on?

Not really sure.....I know pathetic answer

3. What’s a skill you’ve always wanted that you don’t currently have?
How to dress prettier and more stylish

4. Have you ever been in a real cat fight?
No, I hate confrontation.  I get all weepy and scared.  I have a hard time confronting my parents about stuff let alone a stranger.  However I will say that since Joe left I have found some confidence in myself.  I do stand up for myself more, but far from cat fight status.

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.

Blog land - Ok, I guess.  I am still in a funk and don't really want to talk or interact with anyone, so it's hard for me to post stuff now.  But I am reading them!

Real life - I hate to be Debbie Downer all the freaking time, but it sucks.  I am just having a difficult time right now with depression.  I feel like my life is in chaos and I need to get it under control but I can't.   I am really trying to stay positive, but it's a struggle everyday. 

Chattanooga and Moose

So my dad has noticed that I have been in a funk lately, I guess I am not hiding as well as I thought I was!  I have never been to Chattanooga, TN before and it is only 2 hours away, so we went yesterday.  I wasn't really in the mood to go, but I knew that I needed to get out and something.  The ride over was fine, there was hardly anyone on the road, so it was a great drive.  We get to Chattanooga and end up in some artsy district.  We go to this "bakery" (it was actually just a room with bread on shelves).   My dad and took one look and walked right out and went to the sculpture garden across the street.  Well folks this is where the day starts to head south and never looks back again.  Apparently my stepmom didn't see us leave, I'm not sure how she didn't see us....the room was the size of my bathroom for goodness sakes, but anyway, when she finally comes and finds us she is pissed.  She said that my dad left her and "she is here too".  Now, this is where I feel weird.  My relationship with my stepmom has always been strained.  I am a Daddy's girl through and through.  My dad and I get along, we laugh, we talk, it's a great relationship.  For some reason my stepmom can't stand it.  She gets very jealous and I don't know why.  He is my dad.  It's not like I am trying to steal him away.  I am very aware of the fact that they need time and I purposely don't do things with them so she can have him all to herself.   We don't exclude her in things and I bite my tongue ALL THE FLIPPING TIME with her.  So we get back in the car and she starts tearing up.  My dad apologizes and says it was not on purpose (it really  wasn't) and for us to have a good day.  We stopped for lunch and it was probably the most awkward I have ever felt sitting at a table.  No one was talking, my stepmom is still tearing up and refusing to talk to my dad.  She always assumes I am taking my dads side, so she doesn't talk to me either.  I used to let it bother me, but now I just feel like whatever.  I literally just sat there and played on my phone until the food came.  After we ate we went up to Lookout Mtn. and Rock City.  It was a beautiful drive and the views are gorgeous!  Still no talking though.  My dad and I talked, but I feel weird like we are leaving out and when I try to talk to her she is very short.  I just wanted to scream over the rocks.  So after the mountain we left.  It was one of the most awkward days I have had in along time!  

I took the video of Moose below a few weeks ago when we had some snow/ice on the ground.  It doesn't happen very much for us down here in the South, so I thought is was funny that Moose ran full out to get the frisbee, but when he brought it back he was very cautious.  It makes me laugh!  

 Looking out from the sculpture garden

 View from Lookout Mountain

 I realize that I am probably the worst frisbee thrower and I hate the way my voice sounds in this video