"Endorphins.....

make you happy, and happy people don't kill their husbands!"  I couldn't help my little quote from Legally Blonde!  I have a lot of endorphins working right now!!   I went to the Y with my dad tonight.  I walked 21 laps around the track which equals to about 1 3/4 miles.  Of course he took off, so I jammed out on my iPod.  It was nice walking inside as it is African hot here.  I kept a pretty good pace and I actually lapped this one lady 3 times.  She seemed a bit peeved at that, but move it or lose it sister!! 

So Wrong but Tasted SO Good!

I think I made the best biscuits and gravy I have ever made tonight for dinner.  We had breakfast for dinner and my gravy is not the healthiest stuff in the world, but it was SO good.  I only ate 1/2 of what was on my plate, so I am happy about that.  I am not sure if I have mentioned this before, but eggs gross me out.  Raw eggs, cooked eggs, any type of egg grosses me out.  When I was at the Dr. last week they told me I needed to start eating more eggs as they are a good source of protein.  I know this, but ewww.  My husband requested scrambled eggs tonight so I cooked them.  Ugh, it makes me sick thinking about it.  I tried a few bites, but couldn't handle it.  I will find an alternate source of protein thank you very much!! 

102!!!

I really can't believe that I have 102 people who think what I have to say is interesting!!  Thank you to everyone who cares about my little blog, I appreciate the support! 

Good Saturday

As stated above, I had a good saturday.  I woke up and had a text from a friend asking if I wanted to meet her to go shopping.  Is the Pope Catholic?!  Yes, I wanted to go shopping!!   I met her about an hour later and had a great time!  We did some shopping and then went to Bob Baumhower's Wings restaurant.  They have typical bar food.  I was very proud of myself.  I usually get this sandwich that is a breaded chicken patty soaked in wing sauce on a bun with cheese and bacon.  It's really good.  However, I was not that hungry and since my last fill I have not been doing so hot with bread.  Plus it's not the healthiest thing on the menu.  I ended up getting 1/2 a grilled baked potato and a side of grits.  I ate about 1/2 the potato and 1/2 the grits and I was full.  This fill is doing the trick!  Plus my bill was only $3.49!!! 

After I got home, Joe and I went out and looked around at some shops and went to dinner.  Still wasn't that hungry, so I ended up with a grilled chicken salad at Cracker Barrel.  I only ate about 1/4 of it and was full.  I am loving this!! 

On a sad note, can ya'll please say a prayer for a girl I went to high school with?  She has been battling cervical cancer since 2007 and tonight she is going to be with the Lord.  We were not best friends, just acquaintaces but she was one of the nicest people.  She had a little girl in 2007 and just 6 months later was diagnosed.  She kept an online journal and her husband has been updating it.  Today he wrote that Rachel has been busy writing out birthday cards for their daughter so she can remember her.  It just makes me so sad.  Here is a link to a news story about Rachel and her story.  http://www.myfoxatlanta.com/dpp/news/Health_Watch_Cervical_Cancer_Story_072809

BYOC

1. Let’s brag a little….what’s the best perk you’ve ever had in your job (current or past)? Any employment counts - even if you’re a stay at home mom – you have perks (and the hardest job ever in my opinion).


When I worked for a veterinarian my animals were taken care of for free.  He also gave me free dog food and free flea, heartworm and tick meds.  If you have an animal you know that stuff is super expensive, so that was an awesome perk.

2. Do you ever lie in your blog?

Nope

3. What do you wear to bed?

Usually capri pj bottoms and a t shirt. 

4. Where do you go for advice?

My parents.  They are awesome advice givers. 

5. Repeat question. Make someone a superstar without using a blog award. What comment or blog stuck with you the most this week and why?

Probably Mary because she went through a lot this week with a certain blog. 

Oh Yea....

....the fill is working!  My hunger is finally in check and I am not eating nearly what I was.  I am a happy girl right now! 

Fill Baby

I had my doctor appt this morning.  I was so afraid that I was going to get in there and the NP tell me sorry, no fill for you.  If that happened I would have to politely smack her in the head and tell her to jam the needle in my port.  Good news, no head smacking today!  We had the obligatory how much can you eat talk.  There was a point where she was wavering a little like she might not want to do it, but I was able to get .5cc.  So far so good today.  I have not been hungry, I have been drinking water like a mad woman.  Overall, good visit today.  Let's just see if this fill is going to help.......

Who Knew?

Who knew that after just the first episode of Mad Men I would be hooked?!  I love this show.  The 4th season starts this Sunday...I just finished episode 1 of season 1.  Needless to say I will be DVRing the new season until I catch up! 

I knew a couple of famous people graduated from my high school - Chris Collinsworth and Wilbur Marshall, they were professional football players.  In fact, Chris graduated with my dad.  Anyway, today I learned that comedian and host of Tosh.0, Daniel Tosh graduated from my high school in 1993!!  My best friend says that his brother was in our class, but for the life of me I cannot remember him.  I also can't believe that I think my mom threw away my yearbooks....all 4 of them!!!!  I am finding those stupid things next time I go down to FL if it is the last thing I do!!!!

Mad Men and Underwear

Don't worry....it's not perverted!!!

I have seen the upcoming previews for the new season of Mad Men and became intrigued.  I have heard of this show, but have never seen it.  From these commercials I have decided that I need to watch this show.  So, trusty ol' iTunes has the Mad Men seasons on sale.  I downloaded season 1 today and am looking forward to seeing what it's all about!

I am proud to tell you that I have cleaned out my underwear drawer.  I have gone down a few sizes in underwear but refused to let the big ones go for some reason.  Today I cut them loose.  They were very baggy and when my husband started making little comments about the baggy drawers I knew it was time to let them go! 

Woo Hoo

I am going for my fill on Thursday!!!  This makes me very happy!!  Continue with your regularly scheduled Monday.

Just a little help from your friends

I have a confession.  I am a support group drop out.  I went to the first couple of meetings after my surgery and never went back.  I know that is bad.  I don't know, I guess I felt that I didn't need to go.  I went today though.  I went because Mary was going to be there and I want to support her on her way to having surgery.  But while there I learned something...shocking I know.  I learned that it is nice to be around people who have been or are going through the same thing you are.  It's very comforting to know that these people know what it's like.  Don't get me wrong, this blog and you guys are awesome and so encouraging, but when you are in a room with these people and can hear them talk it's very comforting.  This one lady really hit home with me, she even made me cry.  I can relate to her because we are the same age and kind of going through the same issue right now.  We are both kind of at a weight loss plateau.  Just hearing her get up and talk made me feel like I am ok and not some loser who has to give up. 

The big news is that I got to meet Mary @ Band Me.....I'm Ready!  I also met her husband.  They are both so nice and it was so great to meet her in person.  She is so close to having her surgery, I am so happy for her!!

BYOC

Courtesy of the lovely Drazil, It’s give your brain a break Friday – BYOC! A whole blog entry ready for the taking….just copy and paste the questions into your blog and answer away. It’s our way of getting to know new and old bloggers a little better! Enjoy!


1. What's the oddest diet you have tried? Or which ones have you tried and were any successful?

I have tried WW several times and only lost 10-20 lbs before gaining it back plus some.  I have done Atkins and the South Beach diet with no success. 

2. Do you prefer baths or showers?

I prefer a shower.  I am with Stephanie on this, it kind of grosses me out to sit in the dirty water I just bathed in.  No offense to the bath takers out there, but I'm a shower girl.

3. What is your favorite breakfast food?

I LOVE grits.  I know they are not best thing for you, but I love them. 

4. What’s your least favorite word?

The cuss word that takes the Lords name in vain.  That one is the worst for me.


5. Repeat question…make someone a Superstar for a day! Whose blog or comment spoke to you or stuck with you the most this week and why?

I think everyone is a superstar!!

Redneck Water Helper

This my friends, is my new favorite mug/cup.  It is 32 oz so I know that when I drink two of these puppies I have met my quota for the day.  But do I drink just two?  Nope, I drink about 6 of these a day.  I am in love!!  Sure, it's covered in bass and deer and a giant turkey......I don't give a crap!!  It was $3.99 and I know I am getting my water quota in for the day. 

If anyone would like to join the redneck water club, let me know.  I live about 15 min from the Bass Pro Shop and can get you one and send it to you!! 

Fill Maybe?

I just finished Skyping with my Mamaw and she is the best!!  She is sending me some cash to help me get a fill, she is best Mamaw EVER!!!  She also sent me some clothes she bought at Belk she thought I would like.  They are cute, but dare I say....TOO BIG!!  I am going tomorrow to exchange them for something more in my size.  That is so exciting just saying that or typing it.  Whatever, you get what I'm saying!!  I have already put the reminder in my BlackBerry to call the Dr. office tomorrow to see when they can fit me in!! 

People are Dumb and Other Ramblings

My mom is still in the hospital.  They think it may be a parasite, so they are running those tests.  Now onto the people are dumb part.  I talked to my mom earlier tonight and she sounded upbeat and better than she has in the past few days. We talked, all was good.  I am sitting in bed messing around on the computer, it's 11:50 my time so it's 12:50 am her time.  The first thing that pops in my head is they found out what is going on and she is calling to tell me.  Um no, she is calling me because she is scared.  Completely understandable, right?  Then I find out why she is so upset all of the sudden.  One of her friends apparently told her about some disease that her friend had where you get an infection in your colon or something because you took to many antibiotics in your life.  Of course my mom instantly googles it and now thinks that is what she has.   I am not upset with my mom at all.  I know it is hard for her to sit in the hospital for days with doctors telling her they don't know what's wrong with her.  I know she is scared.  So my question is why would her friend tell her something like that?!  I know that she probably was just talking and didn't even think about it, but it still makes me upset that what she said has upset my mom.  I hate that I can't be down there with her.  I know the doctors are doing what they can to help her, but I feel so helpless up here. 

I called my band doctor today to find out what I can do about getting fills.  I vaguely remember them saying something that fills are covered for the first year.  Yea, they are free for the first year if you paid cash for your surgery.  I did not.  But you know what?  I am just going to suck it up and pay for a fill.  I NEED A FLIPPING FILL!!!!!!!  

I am really, really trying to have a better attitude for life in general.  I have 2 choices....I can feel crappy about my situation or make the best of it.  Today I am choosing to make the best of it!  I really have to say that Mary's post helped me so much, so thank you Mary!!! 

I have a new addiction....Jen Lancaster books!!  Gilly got me started with Such a Pretty Fat: One Narcissist's Quest to Discover If Her Life Makes Her Ass Look Big; Or, Why Pie Is Not the Answer.   I loved it!!  I have now bought Bright Lights, Big Ass: A Self-Indulgent, Surly Ex-Sorority Girl's Guide to Why it Often Sucks in the City, or Who Are All These Idiots and Why Do They Live Next Door to Me? and Bitter is the New Black: Confessions of a Condescending, Egomanical, Self-Centered, Smartass, or Why You Should Never Carry a Prada Bag to the Unemployment Office and Pretty in Plaid: A Life, a Witch, and a Wardrobe, Or the Wonder Years Before the Condescending, Egomaniacal, Self-Centered Smart-Ass Phase.  I have bought them all off of eBay so I don't feel so guilty about it, but I love these books.  I am actually the current high bidder on her newest book - My Fair Lazy: One Reality Television Addict's Attempt to Discover If Not Beinga Dumb Ass Is the New Black Or a Culture-up Manifesto.  She is so funny and I feel like I can relate to what she is writing. 

Kristen, I am really sorry for not texting or emailing you.  I have just been down and not really wanted to talk to anyone.  However, I am starting to feel better.  I know that is not an excuse, so please forgive me.  I hope you have an amazing time on your trip and when you get back we have to have dinner so I can hear all about it!!!

I have one more thing I would like to rant about, please indulge me.  I know that Twilight is HUGE.  I have never read a Twilight book nor have I seen a Twilight movie.  I am not a Twilight hater at all, however it seems to some people that if you don't read a book or see a movie you automatically become Twilight hater.  So why is it that some women get pissed at me when I tell them I don't really care about it.  I am not judging you for liking it, so why are you judging me for not caring about it?  It just does not interest me at all.  It's ok for me not to care about it and you like it.  It doesn't make me a bad person and it doesn't make you a bad person.  When college football season comes around I am a football girl, I love watching it and going to games.  That may not be your cup of tea and that's ok. 

Alright, I think I am done for the night!

Mama Update

So the latest on my mama is that it could be a virus.  They are still running tests though.  They did a cat scan of her abdomen and part of her bowel could be partially blocked, again they are running more tests.  They have her hooked up to fluids and she sounds a lot better.  Thank you to everyone for their thoughts and prayers, I appreciate it so much. 

My Mom

Hey guys,

I just got a call from my Gma that my mom was admitted to the hospital last night.  She has not been able to keep anything down since Monday.  She either throws it back up or diarhea.  I talked to this morning and they said she is severely dehydrated but something else may be wrong with her bowel.  The dr. had not been in yet this morning.  Can ya'll please say a prayer for her?  I would appreciate it.  When I get an update I will let you know.

BYOC

1. Love or money? High salary or job satisfaction?
Definitely love over money.  I am selfish and would want a high salary with job satisfaction.  I know that is cheating, but too bad!!

2. What is your favorite time of day?
I am a total night person, so it is when everyone is asleep. 

3. My in-laws just had their wills done so it made me wonder this. Do you have a will? Did you tell anyone your wish to be kept alive or not?
I do not have a will currently.  Joe and I don't have any kids so I didn't think it was necessary to have one.  My dad is an attorney, so when the time comes to get one I can get it pretty fast!!

4. Repeat question. Pick one thing for one day you'll do next week that aids in your physical or mental health.
I am going to walk everyday next week.  I am going to do it whether I want to or not, I am going to push myself to get out there.  I am visualizing myself skinny.  I know it sounds stupid, but it's working for me!

5. Repeat questions. Make someone a superstar for a moment...whose comment or blog stuck with you this week and why.
Everyone who commented on my last post....thank you.  Thank you so much for making me feel loved.  It means so much to me.

Insert witty title here

I wish I was feeling better to blog, but I am not.  My new hair high has worn off and I am feeling down again.  I hate that I get on here and am a debbie downer all the time, but I feel I can get on here and just let it out. 

I don't know why I am crying.  Like I have said before it's a culmination of things.  Right now I am upset because I can't get a fill and I need one bad.  I can't go because I don't have insurance anymore and I can't pay for a fill right now.  It's really depressing me.  And as some of ya'll may know it just perpetuates the stupid cycle of me wanting to eat and then I get more depressed because I can't stop eating.  I just feel like a failure.  I know that it will get better.  I just don't want to cry anymore. 

I have to say though that you are all so inspiring to me.  I know I am not the best blogger and I don't comment alot, but I do read your blogs and they are really inspiring and so encouraging.  I appreciate you all and all of your support.   I am really trying to get out of this funk and feel better.  I hate feeling this way. 

New Do

So I have been in this funk lately and honestly don't see much light at the end of the tunnel yet, but it will get better, it has to right?  I thought I would get my hair cut since that always makes me feel better.  Am I glad I did....I love it!!  I used to go to this salon but my stylist left and didn't tell anyone where she went, so I have been going different places to hopefully find someone I liked.  Well that sucked blue whale.  I have been sporting some not so flattering do's these past few months.  I decided that I would call the salon I left since I liked it and they were reasonable.  I have never been to a male stylist before, not because I didn't want to, but never really had the opportunity, but today Johnny was awesome.  He actually listened to me and while cutting actually explained why he was cutting this way or that way which I appreciate.   I know it may not look that different, but I have a massive amount of hair and he thinned it out a lot and actually gave it a shape.  Plus I love that my face is finally looking thinner to me.  A lot of people have said that, but I never saw it but in this picture I can tell...yay!

It's not the greatest picture, but it's with a BlackBerry so this is what you get!!

Happy 4th!!

Once again I am up at 3 a.m. not able to find that sweet slumber, so I thought I would wish everyone a safe and happy 4th of July!!

Joe, my father-in-law and myself went to a Birmingham Barons baseball game earlier this evening and had a blast!  It's kind of hard to find stuff to do with Joe's dad, but sports is always a good choice!  The Barons won so that made the night even better.  The fireworks after the game were awesome! 

Not sure how much ya'll know about B'ham but we have a big guy here called The Vulcan.  He is the god of steel because apparently here you can find all of the substances to make steel natuarally or something like that.  Anyway, there is a huge monument and he is The Vulcan - see below.

The point of the history lesson is that every 4th of July there is a huge fireworks show called Thunder on the Mountain (he is built on Red Mountain - history lesson for another day).  So we are planning on getting a good spot early and watching the fireworks.  For some reason this year I am pretty excited to see the fireworks. 

Ok, I am getting tired now.  I am going to leave you with some pictures of me and my love from the Barons game. 

BYOC....it's been a while!

1. Seeing that it’s a patriotic holiday of sorts I thought of this one: Where were you on September 11th?

I was at work.  I was working as a receptionist for a publishing company.  One of my co-workers came up and told me that something had happened to the WTC.  I couldn't go anywhere to find out because I had to answer the phones.  My mom worked at the same place so she came up and told me what happened. We all went to the back to watch the tv.  We closed for the day to spend time with our families.  I will never forget that day. 

2. What is your idea of fun? If given the chance to skip work/life for an entire day, what would you do? (assume you’d be by yourself)

I would probably go to a spa and just relax. 

How many blogs do you follow?
82

Do you read them all or just your faves?
I try to read them all

Do you comment a little, a lot, on all?
I try to comment, but I am very self conscience and sometimes am afraid I sound stupid.  Don't judge.

Have you ever unfollowed someone because of something they said or you didn’t like their blog?
Once

Do you routinely unfollow and why?
No

4. Repeat question. Pick one day and one healthy thing you’ll do for just that day next week.

On Monday I am going to Zumba for the first time.  I am very excited!!!!

5. Repeat "Make someone a superstar" question. Whose blog or blog comment stuck with you this week and why?

I admit that I have been a blogging slacker and am working on catching up with everyone's blog.  Draz's poem made me cry.  I am so excited for Mary going to WDW!!