I wish I was feeling better to blog, but I am not. My new hair high has worn off and I am feeling down again. I hate that I get on here and am a debbie downer all the time, but I feel I can get on here and just let it out.
I don't know why I am crying. Like I have said before it's a culmination of things. Right now I am upset because I can't get a fill and I need one bad. I can't go because I don't have insurance anymore and I can't pay for a fill right now. It's really depressing me. And as some of ya'll may know it just perpetuates the stupid cycle of me wanting to eat and then I get more depressed because I can't stop eating. I just feel like a failure. I know that it will get better. I just don't want to cry anymore.
I have to say though that you are all so inspiring to me. I know I am not the best blogger and I don't comment alot, but I do read your blogs and they are really inspiring and so encouraging. I appreciate you all and all of your support. I am really trying to get out of this funk and feel better. I hate feeling this way.