I wish I was feeling better to blog, but I am not. My new hair high has worn off and I am feeling down again. I hate that I get on here and am a debbie downer all the time, but I feel I can get on here and just let it out.
I don't know why I am crying. Like I have said before it's a culmination of things. Right now I am upset because I can't get a fill and I need one bad. I can't go because I don't have insurance anymore and I can't pay for a fill right now. It's really depressing me. And as some of ya'll may know it just perpetuates the stupid cycle of me wanting to eat and then I get more depressed because I can't stop eating. I just feel like a failure. I know that it will get better. I just don't want to cry anymore.
I have to say though that you are all so inspiring to me. I know I am not the best blogger and I don't comment alot, but I do read your blogs and they are really inspiring and so encouraging. I appreciate you all and all of your support. I am really trying to get out of this funk and feel better. I hate feeling this way.
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That just REALLY sucks!!
ReplyDelete*hugs* to you
I sorry, love. I'm sorry you are feeling so sad. I hope things get better for you..here are some {{{{mama hugs}}}} for you!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry that you are feeling down. I know it must be very frustrating that you can't get a fill. Maybe you could work out a payment plan? Also remember you do have some help losing weight, you have a band and it is partially filled which is more than you had when you were doing it on your own. Work with that, don't do anything that is going to sabatoge all the hard work you have already done.
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ReplyDeleteI don't have any great advice. Just wanted to remind you that we're here and we care about you.
ReplyDeleteMy opinion: Blogging should be something you do when you feel the need or the inspiration to do so. This is not a job or competition, so relax and don't put pressure on yourself. The urge comes and goes with me and I finally decided that I would blog when I felt like it; that I was not being judged. I am sorry that you can't get a fill right now! Just hang in there a little bit, it will get better and all is not lost I promise!
ReplyDeleteOh it's okay - you blog when you can and when you feel like it. We're all here for you. I'm worried about you...feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteKim - you are NOT a failure!! You have run into a road block but it's only temporary. Things will always get better. Remember, we love you, you are worth taking care of and we want you to blog whenever you feel like it...even if you are sad. We care about you and want to help you out if you are having a rough time.
ReplyDeleteDo we all need to fly in with our super bat-wing flapper arms to come cheer you up? Cause WE WILL!!!!
See Amy's video @ the 2:00 mark for a demonstration:
http://cheeseandsunkist.blogspot.com/2010/04/spaz-vlog-i-have-batwings.html
This is your blog, angel...you blog about whatever you want! I wish I wasn't broke...I would send you $$$ for your fill. I think it's so stupid that you have to pay for every fill! However...I think we've all been in the situation where we've needed a fill and for one reason or another haven't been able to get one. And this is where it really IS work. So my advice to you (and what I do when I'm in the same situation) is to have lots of cooked protein on hand. Like I usually have a few chicken breasts in the fridge, already cooked. Then I will have half of one with a sh!tload of Frank's Redhot sauce on it...makes it taste like wings! Or salmon fillets. Or turkey pepperoni...or those little round red cheeses...just anything that might fill you up in small portions. And don't drink your protein. And always ask yourself: am I really hungry? And now I realize I'm probably being annoying telling you how to live your life so I'll stop. But I hope maybe I've said something that will help you while you wait for your next fill. Chin up, little soldier. *hugs*
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