Sunday, August 15, 2010

One of the hardest posts

OK, this is not one of, but the hardest post I have ever had to write since I started this blog. 

I am getting divorced.  Do you know how heartbreaking that is too see in print?  Extremely hard. 

We have been having problems but I thought we could work through them.  We have been separated for the past couple of weeks to see if we could make it work.  We can't.  I am so extremely sad and heartbroken and just a wave of so many emotions, but deep down I know that it is the best thing for me and him.  I have realized that I deserve to be happy.  I never would have felt this way before, but something in me has changed.  I don't know what, but it has.  I am moving forward with my life to make it better. 

I am still planning on coming to Chicago.  I think I am really going to need this trip.  It is giving me something to look forward to.  I just hope that I can still swing it money wise, but I will try my best to.

20 comments:

  1. My thoughts of strength are being sent to you.
    Your Happiness is so very important and I am happy you have recognized this.

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  2. So sorry, Kim! I'm glad you are still coming to Chicago -- we'll do our best to cheer you up!

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  3. I am so sorry Kim. My sister just went through this a couple months ago and if you are like her, you will be amazed at what you find within yourself during this time. We are here for you and I am so glad you will be in Chicago so we can help you celebrate (yes, CELBRATE) this new chapter in your life.

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  4. Hugs to you sweetie....you are not alone...can't wait to talk it out with you in person in Chicago. Be well.

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  5. Many hugs and lots of banded blogger love to you!!

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  6. I'm sorry Kim. You are so right, though, you deserve happiness. And you will find it.


    Can't wait to give you a big ol' bandster hug in Chicago! For now, virtual hugs *hugs*

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  7. I too am divorced and so I know just how hard it is. We are here for ya!

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  8. I am sorry Kim ...I hope the healing happens fast and you find the happiness you deserve. I am divorced and remarried and can tell you that it gets better and even great with time.

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  9. So sorry you're going through this painful time. xx

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  10. So sorry you're having to deal with this. Be gentle with yourself during this hard time.

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  11. Divorce sucks, but being unhappy sucks more. I was married for 18 years, got divorced and I felt a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. I have been remarried now for 10 years and I couldn't be happier. Good luck to you honey, can't wait to meet you in Chicago!

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  12. I want to HUG you! I'm sorry. You DO deserve to be happy. You will be happy someday, I PROMISE!

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  13. I am so sorry, I can't imagine what you are going through right now. My thoughts are with you and I am so sad that I can't make it to Chicago to give you a big hug in person! <3

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  14. I too am so sorry. {{{{HUGS}}}} Hope to see you in Chicago.

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  15. Ditto what everyone else has said- I am so sorry, but it sounds like your doing the right thing and moving in the right direction. I wish I could be there in Chicago to give you a hug, but just know you deserve to be happy! xxoo

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  16. I will be praying for your strength. ((((HUGGS)))) to you!

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  17. Well. Shit. Here is what I can say. It will just be words. But, I mean them.

    It hurts so bad this part...this part of ending something where there was love and hope. It hurts "giving up" on something you have worked for...spent so much time on. I didnt get divorced..as you know...but I broke up with Tracey right before he was going to propose...and it sucked. For awhile. It sucked even though I had found Heather and love. So, I can only imagine your feelings. But...it will get better. Maybe not fast enough or soon enough...but it will start, a little at a time. And hopefully one day, sooner than later, you will look back and think "It all happened for a reason".

    If you ever need an ear...you know where to find me.

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