I went over to Atlanta today and did some shopping. The first stop was IKEA. I love this store, however it was a complete mad house today. I guess all the kids going off to college needed all their crap today! Next I went to the Container Store. This was the first time I had ever been into an actual store and LOVED it!! I am an organizer and it was heaven for me. Next was a quick trip into Target. Now I have been to Target thousands of times, but this time was different. I am on the hunt for some jeans as the jeans I own now are TOO BIG!!!! Normally I get my jeans for Old Navy because I like their style and fit, but since I can't try them on in the store it's hit and miss with online ordering. In Target today I decided to try on a pair. They did not have the size I thought I would wear so I was bummed. I decided what the heck I'll try on the next size down and guess what?! They fit!!! And they were on clearance, score!!!
I think I am having a hard time with getting my head around my band still. Monday was my one year band anniversary. It was very bittersweet for me. I am so happy that had this surgery and would not change it for the world. However I am not anywhere near where I wanted to be a year out. I realize this is my own fault, but I am hopefully on the right track. I have been doing zumba for the past 2 weeks and walking on the days I have not been to zumba.
I am not gonna lie to ya'll. I am scared to come to Chicago. I am not afraid of flying or travelling. I am afraid that ya'll won't like me. I can type out my feelings on here, but I really am shy in person. I am afraid that I won't look good enough next to everyone. This is purely my own insecurities coming out and not a reflection of you guys. Right now my clothes are in limbo because I am changing sizes and I don't want to buy a lot. I am really trying to just let go of these feelings and come have a good time. I know I will, but this is how I am feeling right this moment.