Sunday, August 15, 2010

Shopping and Rambling

I went over to Atlanta today and did some shopping.  The first stop was IKEA.  I love this store, however it was a complete mad house today.  I guess all the kids going off to college needed all their crap today!  Next I went to the Container Store.  This was the first time I had ever been into an actual store and LOVED it!!  I am an organizer and it was heaven for me.  Next was a quick trip into Target.  Now I have been to Target thousands of times, but this time was different.  I am on the hunt for some jeans as the jeans I own now are TOO BIG!!!!  Normally I get my jeans for Old Navy because I like their style and fit, but since I can't try them on in the store it's hit and miss with online ordering.  In Target today I decided to try on a pair.  They did not have the size I thought I would wear so I was bummed.  I decided what the heck I'll try on the next size down and guess what?!  They fit!!!  And they were on clearance, score!!! 

I think I am having a hard time with getting my head around my band still.  Monday was my one year band anniversary.  It was very bittersweet for me.  I am so happy that had this surgery and would not change it for the world.  However I am not anywhere near where I wanted to be a year out.  I realize this is my own fault, but I am hopefully on the right track.  I have been doing zumba for the past 2 weeks and walking on the days I have not been to zumba. 

I am not gonna lie to ya'll.  I am scared to come to Chicago.  I am not afraid of flying or travelling.  I am afraid that ya'll won't like me.  I can type out my feelings on here, but I really am shy in person.  I am afraid that I won't look good enough next to everyone.  This is purely my own insecurities coming out and not a reflection of you guys.  Right now my clothes are in limbo because I am changing sizes and I don't want to buy a lot.  I am really trying to just let go of these feelings and come have a good time.  I know I will, but this is how I am feeling right this moment. 

7 comments:

  1. I love IKEA and work across the street from one. It is a zoo right now with all the back-to-school kids and their new catalogue just came out. Yah for finding a pair of jeans-my next thing as the weather turns colder.

    Chicago will be awesome. I think the majority of us are a bit shy when we meet someone in person. But we won't let anyone feel left out. Here to having a grand time that weekend!

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  2. Don't even worry about Chicago for a second! The bandster community is so supportive and friendly, and you are going to have a great time! Looking forward to meeting you there. :)

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  3. congrats on the new size in jeans! And don't worry about Chicago for a minute, we are going to have a blast!

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  4. Way to go on the new jeans and to echo everyone else, Chicago is going to be like coming home to old friends. No judgments, no outsiders. How often do we get to experience THAT??

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  5. Let me know the next time you're coming to Atlanta--maybe we can meet for coffee.

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  6. Everything is going to be A-OK....trust me...I have a gut feeling on this one!

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  7. Girlfriend, put your fears aside. Like Deb said, it will be a judgement free zone. There will be like, 55 women there. You are not going to be a wallflower. I will not allow it!! :) Shyness be damned, this is everyone's time to shine and come out of your shell. No critiques, no fear...We will all have a good time!!

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