Well, if I am going to do something, I am going to do it big I guess. I went to the orthopedic Dr. this morning and found out the problem with my foot. They took 3 x-rays of my foot and within the first 5 seconds of looking at them the Dr. was like "oh yea, there's your problem." The official diagnosis is Base of the 5th metatarsal fracture non union. Basically the bone that juts out on the side of your foot is fractured. I have been walking around with it like this for the last 4 years, but now that I am exercising more and losing the weight it is hurting a lot more. So, I know you are asking - Kim, how do they fix this? Well, I'll tell you. I have 2 options. Behind door #1 is do nothing, just keep walking around with the pain. Behind door #2 is surgery. I know, right?! Where did that come from?! Basically since I have been walking around with this fracture for so long it will never heal by itself. There are 2 options for surgery. The first one they go in and screw the bones back together. The Dr. does not recommend this option. Option 2 is they go in and take out the bone that is fractured and reattach the tendon. That is what I am going to go with. I have talked this over with several people and at this point I think this is my best option.
I don't know why I am so emotional about this. I held it together in his office, but when I got out to my car I broke down and started crying. I guess I know why I am emotional about it. First I am upset because this is just another road block for me and my weight loss. I am actually wanting to exercise and after surgery I will have a cast and be on crutches for 8 weeks. However, if I don't have it I don't want to exercise because my foot hurts. In the long run I know that this will help me lose weight. Secondly I have this unnatural fear of anesthesia. I don't know where it comes from, but I am afraid I will die under anesthesia. I know it's stupid, but it makes me cry whenever I think about it.
I don't have a date yet, but I should know something this week. Part of me doesn't want to have it and just deal with it, but I know that is not really an option. I know this will help me. I am depressed about it.